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我握着她的手,注射器扎进她的手臂,泪水很快停住了,那原本清澈、机灵的双眼,现在却闭上了,看起来似乎充满了恐惧。
我痛苦而慌乱地与她吻别,然后,看着她穿过那道无情的门,被推进了手术室。
我整天待在
候诊室,用校对稿子来分散我的焦虑。
直到傍晚时,她才回到病房,胸前缠绕着一大片绷带,我想她一定会喜欢那个外科医生缠绕绷带时的细心与精巧的手艺。
这使我想起我们的孩子还是婴儿的时候,她为他们的摇篮缝制床单。
这些绷带看起来亲切又安全可靠——不像我想的那么粗糙。
灯光昏暗的房间里,充斥着强烈的消毒水的味道。
坐在她旁边,我意识到我们的生命是如此的息息相关,以至于我此时也成了病人。
我茫然地盯着窗外,只看到灰粉色的云彩掠过傍晚的天空,我感到心力交瘁。
差不多快七点时,她微微动了一下,听到她的呻吟,我移到床边。
从桌子上的水罐里拿出一点冰片,轻轻碰触她的嘴唇,拂开她额前被汗水沁湿的灰白头发。
“我爱你。”
我说。
听到这些话,她慢慢地睁开眼睛,起初,她的目光似乎有些迷茫,没有焦点,但很快,她的眼睛便变得透彻起来,她认出了我,嘴角浮现出一抹温柔的笑。
“我也爱你。”
她呢喃道,眼睛又闭上了。
此时的我几乎筋疲力尽。
回想起第一次见到她的情景,我仿佛又回到了年轻时代,回到了那个阳光灿烂的早上。
她就是我的至爱。
我再一次在心中对自己说道,她就是我的至爱。
&sawher,shewaswalkingaed-schoolquad.Istoodmotionlessasifstunned,followihmyeyes.Sheistheoomyself.ItwasthefirstdayofsIaskedaclassmateabouther,hetoldmetetit.Shehasaboyfriend,hesaid.AfewmonthslaterIheardshe’deionship.ButIwaitedatleasthalfayeartoaskforadate.WhenItelephooryandaskednervouslyforher,Itrahesyllablesofherfirstandlastarble.“Diurday?”
Iproposed,embarrassedaiion.“Iwouldenjoythat.”
sheanswered,soundiurdayIgreetedheratthedormandwasagairancedbyherloveliness.Ihadmadereservatio30milesaway.Ilostmywayanddroveaimlesslyonruralroadsforanhourasmyexasperationmounted.Sheremainedgood-humored-happy,shesaid,teswhosehistoriesshehadreadabout.Weedtherestauraranoutofgas.Wefi10p.,hamburgersaadinner.Inherfloraldress,withherstraightblondhairandclassicfeatures,shestoodoutamongthelocalkids.Backatschool,Iologizefortheevening.ButIfeltherwarmhandtakemihenshequicklykissedmycheek.
“Thankyouforawonderfulevening.”
shesaidsoftly.BeforeIprehehadhappened,shedisappearediory.Howmaherebeeslikethat,momentsofsuch
enpassinggradlovethatIdoubtedtheiractuality?Momehedaye,SundaymonthePacificcoastsheeheherfather’sarmaheaisleatmysoon-to-bewife.Orthemomewowerebornandherfacebecameradiantassheemergedfromtheunreachablerealmoflaboriion.ButOctober15,1993,wasdifferent.Thatday,wearoseat5a.,havingahardslept.Howyourestwhenabladewillsoonseverfleshsodear?Shekissedbothofourastheyslept,buttheyirredoodluommy.”
Ial,afterwesighepapers,Iwatchedhertoafadedgoairsofsocks,asiftheworstinjurythatdaywouldbethechilloftheroo
Shemyarmsandsaidshedidn’twantthesurgery.IheldherhandasanI.V.wasioherarInafewsedshertearsstoppedahoseeyesthathadalwaysseemedsodclear,butnowlookedsofearful.FeelingfrantiddisectedIkissedher,andthensheaythroughtheunfdoorsofthesuite.Ispehewaitingroompolishingamanuscriptwhoseonlysigspowertodistrashereturoherroomlatethatafteranseofbillowinglacedbyasurgeon’shandsreddelicacyshewouldhaveadmired.Iwasremihecoverletshehadappliquedforour’scradlewhes.Thebandagelookedgeective—reassuringandnotasharshasIhadexpected.
Sittingbesideherinadimlylitroomthatsmelledsharplyofdisi,Irealizedthatbecausemylifewassoihhers,I,too,atieedaaredblanklyouttheink-graycloudssltheafternoonsky.It.beforeshestirred.Iheardhermoaheedgeofthebed.Ilightlytouchedherlipswithanicethepitherbedsidetable,ahegray-fleckedhairacrosshersweatybrow.“Iloveyou.”
Isaid.Atthesewords,hereyesopely.Atfirsthergazeseemedfusedanduforaninstanthereyessharpehre,alesmileliftedtheedgesofhermouth.“Iloveyoutoo.”
shewhispered,andthe.IwasclosetoexhaustionanddislotimeasIrecalledthemomentIfirstsawher.ItwasasifIwasyoungagainandthesuinthemsky.Sheistheone,Isaidonymiheone.
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