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对我来说，我必须坦白承认，我很愚蠢，因为我不懂技术方面的东西。
但是，承认这个事实后，我的确是一个相当聪明的人。
只是令我悲伤的是，不论多少课程或者培训都不能完全解决我的技术缺陷。
另一个不正确的观点是，我自认为很自私，因为我只生了一个孩子。
事实上，生我女儿时我差点丧命，而且，我的丈夫不想收养。
许多年来我依然觉得自己是个不称职的母亲，就像我应该相信上帝会在以后的分娩中保佑我一样。
对我而言，现在我相信，一个孩子正是上帝的旨意。
我拒绝受到谴责。
不过，我对于自己不能实现满屋子孩子的愿望，仍感到悲哀。
&uroafriendwhinmydaskedher，"Whatdoyoulikeaboutyourself？"Werodeinsilenceforseveralminutes.Fiomeandsaid，apologetically，"I'tthinkofanything."
Iwasstunned.Myfrie，g，andpassioshe'tseeanyofthat.
Iknowshe'snotaloeemhasbeethenumber-oneissueplaguieGod'sassurahe'sabsolutelyostofus'tbelievehemeansus.It'sliketheicaleditorwhotellsthecubreporter，"Ifyourmothersaysshelovesyou，checkitout."
Iorterfor12years.OhingsIlearnedinreseargastorywas&quei;.Ifyourrawdataisflawed，youendupwithafaultyeistrueeseeourselves.Ifwelackself-ce，maybewe&#withfla>
&yis，inhundredsofsubtleways，ourculture，family，friehoughtlife—spiretoundermineource.Wegrowupinfamiliesvoidofaffirmatiemehebuildingblockstoself-wefindourselvessmathemiddleofaworldthatliowoHollywoodstarletsandBarbie-dollfigures.Ourpaycheck，ourtitle，orsomeotherartificialyardstickgivesustemporaryeheworldofTheAccepted.Butis，weknowitisn'treal.Howdowefindourwaytothetruth？
I'mteybrotallthegeouaingmanuals，ts，ortomakesenseofputers.WhenIfirsthadtolearnhouterformyjob，IwasceditwastheendoflifeasIk.
Irememberwithpainfulclarityabeginner'sputerclasswheretheinstructortoldusto"pressa;.Isearvai;any"key.Bytheendoftheclass，IwasIwasn&#htodrivemyselfhome，muchlessdressforworkthehisitethefactthatImanagedahome，afamily，ajob，andaprofessionalstaff.
Whywasitsohumiliating？Beyselftothe1irldoorwhoeffortlesslysurfedtheoresearchhertermpaperswhileIstruggledjusttologon.Insteadofsimplygthatteicalprowessisrengths，IcludedImustbestupid.It>
Peoplerespectusasmuchaswerespectourselves.That'swhytheabsenceofself-telegraphtoothersnottobelieveinus.
Fgledtoreentgraciously.Ifsomeoneentedmyhair，I'ddistit.I'dsaymyhairstylemademyfacelookfatorthatmyhairwasamousycolor.WhatIreallymeantwas，theremustbesomemistake.I'mnotward.Idon'tlikemyselfand'treallybelieveyoudo，either.Thetroubleis，ifwepersistinputtingourselvesdowuallypeoplestarttobelievewe&#ht.
&heproblemisn'tfaultydata.Wehaveaureofourselvesorasituatioulatethefirsttimesomeonegesus.
Severalyearsago，Idiscrape-sizedlumpo.Mydoctorscheduledoutpatieaway.Amonthlater，whenIresumedperiodicself-examinatiohesamelumpio-reachplace.Iwasofit！
WhehedesthemighthavemissedthelumpiioedIwaswrong.Itotpossiblybealump，hesaid，becausehehadremovedit.Afterall，hewasthedoctor.
IgotoffthephoingwhatI'dfeltwithmyownhahalcesgavemethecetoinsisthere-examiwhitherelutlyaowledgedthat，yes，itdidseemtobetheinallump.Heremoveditinasedsurgery.
IofessthatIidbecauseIdidn'tueigs.Yet，evenafteraowledgingthatI'mactuallyaprettyiperson，Istillhadtogrievethefaountofclasseswouldeverpletelysolvemyteeptitude！
AnotherlieIbelievedaboutmyselfwasthatI'dbeenselfishfohetruthis，Inearlydiedgivingbirthtomydaughter，andmyhusbanddidn'tt.Still，Ispentyearsfeelinglikeaher—likeIshouldhavetrustedGodtoprotesubsequentchildbirth.
I—inmyechildwasGod'swillforme.I'verejectedtheheless，IhadtogrievethatI'dhehousefulofI'dal
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